End of an Era

I have to get this off my chest. Over time you grow with your family and you learn most from your Elders with their wise words. Throughout this last decade I have lost Family members.
I'm finding it hard to accept that my elders are passing away one by one, it feels as if an End of an Era is near.My aunt passed away the day before my birthday and it struck me that One day I'll have to view my Mother,Grandmother, Grandfather, Father in a Casket and deal with the whole preparation of a funeral.I don't know how I will cope.

When my uncle passed in 2007 I saw him about 2 hours after he passed and I helped him out while he was sick but it hit me that his only his body was there not his spirit, not his jokes. I will no longer see him tell a dry joke, or make videos with his camera. I miss walking into their homes smelling cooked food, the texture of their wall the loud 1960's wall paper print and the loud mix matched carpet.

I get a lump in my throat and an ache in my heart.I try my best to cherish each moment I have with my elders and stop to tell them I love them and how much of an influence they have on me and continue to keep some of the family traditions alive.I know that the body is only a shell for the spirit, but once the last breath is gone the spirit has moved on, its done its time and purpose and many lessons were learnt.Its not death, Its just a transition in the spiritual form. I got to appreciate this,the spirit is always there and memories will forever live on.

Sending love to my ancestors and elders who have passed.

Ashay.

~L~